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A Love Void of Duality

You’ve only just begun, and already you make plans to sprint ahead. You crave a journey set neatly before you, ready for you to fill, with no sudden instances or surprises. You place relationships as the driving force of your life, using it to change your temperature or validate your emotions. Should no-one marvel atContinue reading “A Love Void of Duality”

Accepting

“What kind of day is today going to be?” I spoke to myself directly and succinctly, one that didn’t really warrant a response because, in a sense, I wasn’t asking, but demanding. I was desperately trying to call it out, whatever it was (it was you), and reel it in before it could suffocate theContinue reading “Accepting”

Committing

Life is good, pleasant. You are entering into a new beginning. One where you are unsure of how long you can hold on away from your element, before letting go, reverting, and re-adapting to the lessening of life within yourself. It’s entirely unclear which elements are most conducive for growth right now. It seems muchContinue reading “Committing”

Braving

Today I showed up. I don’t show up every day. Some days I can show up, but my body and soul revert against me. Other days I have every intention to show up but forget to leave everything else behind, forget it takes work, forget it requires blood. The other day I purposefully held myselfContinue reading “Braving”

Fermenting

Richard handed me a jar as to say, make yourself useful. I’m sure that’s exactly what he said, “make yourself useful,” no, he said, “please help out,” they’re the same to me. Everyone before me churned at the lid with lilting force. One woman gnawed on the corner of its opening like a dog chompingContinue reading “Fermenting”

Turmeric

And so after a night of celebrating the victim, I was jolted awake. Eyes wide with no evidence of what had demanded my consciousness. I opted for a second opinion as I gently folded my eyes shut.  Eyes open.  ‘Good morning,’ she whispered, is what I recall. Her unequivocal nature was to whisper, to gentlyContinue reading “Turmeric”

Growing out of Fear

Up north, the earth bares herself to you. She lets you take part in the matrilineal reign of the atmosphere. Her breasts rise high and droop down low to climb her peaks and explore the pastures below. She welcomes you to the edge of her bosom to cast down your tautness and assail your ennui,Continue reading “Growing out of Fear”

Bruised Healing

My period of healing has lasted for four years now. It’s been hard to imagine what the other side will look like, and truth be told, I am pretty comfortable on the side I currently rest upon. I’ve dogged hate and humiliation and have come out unscathed. My hands aren’t bruised, my voice still speaks,Continue reading “Bruised Healing”

Potted Flower

A year ago today, I was running away to Spain in search of an opportunity to find myself, exist in an undiscoverable manner, and reinvent my ability to choose myself over other people. I discovered myself and planted it into a new version of her. Since a year ago, I have backslid into someone completelyContinue reading “Potted Flower”

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