My prayer for the month was for as I journeyed through my pain and claimed healing over my life, that I would be able to have deep love and empathy for those who still believe they are unworthy. They say we hate in others what we dislike in ourselves and so therefore I have been trying to love the pain and not perfect it or punish it. Already I was given eyes to see the bigger picture, the bigger story that is written on all of our hearts that we never feel safe to share. I saw three men throw literal trash out side of the window. At first I was just shocked. I assumed most trash was from overflowing bins, or left behind and blown away. But then it hit me, a pang in my heart that hurt deeply for the truth they must of believed to commit such an act: that they didn’t matter. In order to start making change in the universe we have to first believe we matter, we must first acknowledge and tend to our own deterioration within. These men didn’t believe what they did mattered because that would have to mean that they felt they mattered, that they had people in their lives validating this truth, and only then can we live out of the truth of truly mattering. So that’s my prayer for those men, for this universe, and for October – to have deep love and understanding for the bigger story of the heart, the one that craves deep unending love because we are all deserving of it.
Current Highs: Self Love
Current Lows: Lies I sometimes tell myself when I don’t feel worthy of healing / Healing from other peoples expectations
October Quote: “My sufficiency is in Christ alone – no one else.”
October Intention / Reminder: Uproot the expectations others have placed on you and the expectations you have placed on yourself. You are here to journey. You are your own standard and everything you go through is an opportunity for expansion, not for other people to superimpose their shame onto you or vice versa. You are enough as you are, mistakes and all. Heal from it all and let it go.
Miss Parisia B.
October Focus: Claiming healing over my life and relationships.
A Psalm of Undying Love – A Psalm written from the depths of the forest and depths of my heart. A prayer and praise for the one who deserves all of the glory in my life. Because without God I have no love, and without Christ the love I give isn’t a tangible love, and without the Holy Spirit this experience of overwhelming love for my creator would be void. I am grateful.
A Dozen Crows- A dozen crows reminded me of you today, of your flight and how I once forbade it. But love is expansive my dear and I can give you the freedom you want. Teach me the freedom you need, that I may still not want to give. Just don’t leave, mentally, emotionally, or physically my bird.
Burnt eyes and restored vision– After years of sharing my story to the wrong people, years of thinking the rejection and pain imposed on me was personal, that my growth deserved punishment; today I burn it down.
Promised Healing- A love letter to the one who has been wounded by my misunderstanding of my own pain. A confident declaration about the promise of healing through the risk of vulnerability, by asking for my deepest need…you.
Cocooned Healing- A love letter to all the wounded parts of ones soul. A true acceptance of the gifts that will get me where I am going and a surrender to shame, expectations, and guilt. A beckoning of the healing never felt because of fear and protectionism.
The legacy on Diamond Head Dr.- About the legacy prominent women leave behind that becomes instrumental in crafting your own intuition, in stepping into true womanhood.