On the Threshold by which I stand…- Letting go of the need to know but refusing to wait in doubt. Instead, claiming what is mine and knowing I am worthy to hold it.
I can no longer accept your judgements… – When I can no longer live life with expectancy and hope, is when I can no longer live with the judgements of other people or with the fear of their judgements wrapped around my neck. I want to live a life of love, even for those who misunderstand their own pain because for years I’ve done the same.
I never told you what I needed but I think it’s time… – Somewhere along the way I thought you wanted easy. Instead it became impossible to love me because I wasn’t honest from the beginning.
This altar requires an offering but I can’t burn for you… – A piece about letting go of the idea of what you gain in a relationship and instead embracing a love without conditions. It’s about dancing with our true selves and lighting the path for your lover to get back to you. But this path requires much sacrifice and deep healing.
You can do it afraid, just make sure you do it…- It’s not little faith that will separate you from your dreams it’s the doubt that severs you from it all. It’s the doubt that makes you think you don’t deserve love. So release whatever faith you do have, read this out loud and over yourself; may it drown out your fears.
A Love Void of Grace– We make so many mistakes with love and then we give up on love because we don’t feel worthy of forgiving our own mistakes.
A Love Void of Duality- You are shocked when I’m evil and then Divine. When I’m human and the next day sublime. I fail you when I try to only present one and not the other. When I want only your glory but wither when I bring you pain. There is no love without duality, that only brings shame.
A Love Void of Fear- because no matter what mistakes I’ve made, no matter who rejects me, no matter if I’m the problem or not, real love belongs to me, no conditions at all.
A Most Familiar Day- You love me, I can feel it. There was a shift, I saw it. Today was different and although you still hide, the morning bore itself to me. Our time is coming, my heart is still waiting.
When now and then- Nostalgia feels worse than fear. I find myself no longer concerned about the future yet so distracted in the present with being sad about the past.
A Psalm of Undying Love – A Psalm written from the depths of the forest and depths of my heart. A prayer and praise for the one who deserves all of the glory in my life. Because without God I have no love, and without Christ the love I give isn’t a tangible love, and without the Holy Spirit this experience of overwhelming love for my creator would be void. I am grateful.
A Dozen Crows- A dozen crows reminded me of you today, of your flight and how I once forbade it. But love is expansive my dear and I can give you the freedom you want. Teach me the freedom you need, that I may still not want to give. Just don’t leave, mentally, emotionally, or physically my bird.
Burnt eyes and restored vision– After years of sharing my story to the wrong people, years of thinking the rejection and pain imposed on me was personal, that my growth deserved punishment; today I burn it down.
Promised Healing- A love letter to the one who has been wounded by my misunderstanding of my own pain. A confident declaration about the promise of healing through the risk of vulnerability, by asking for my deepest need…you.
Cocooned Healing- A love letter to all the wounded parts of ones soul. A true acceptance of the gifts that will get me where I am going and a surrender to shame, expectations, and guilt. A beckoning of the healing never felt because of fear and protectionism.
The legacy on Diamond Head Dr.- About the legacy prominent women leave behind that becomes instrumental in crafting your own intuition, in stepping into true womanhood.
Only to be with you– It takes two. But doing your part alone seems hopeless.
Anticipating– Change doesn’t happen over night, it requires detours, re-routing, travailing and letting go of the thought that you can control the outcome.
Holding On- How do we really know when something has reach the peak of it’s existence. Is it something you feel in the pit of your stomach? And what about the other feelings, the ones with an expiration date as long as the life that was given; what does one do with those?
Coming– Coming to terms with yourself is hard enough without the baggage of every man you ever let enter you weighing you down. Exposing your truth is where you find freedom.
Turmeric – Sometimes you can’t find healing anywhere else than in a cup of tea, sprinkled with fermented turmeric and the intention to rise.
Braving – They say healing isn’t linear. That shit really isn’t. But whether you’re moving up or down, side to side or backward, it takes work, it requires blood.
Fermenting– What do you do with the memories when there is no promise of a future? How do you make the best out of the pain… you ferment it.
Deepening– In order for a plant to grow you must plant it deep enough. I don’t know if that is even right and perhaps this is why I fail at deepening relationships. You decide.
Rooting– For when your soul is begging you to start but in totality you don’t have the necessary tools to begin. This line rhythm will help realize the lie you’re telling yourself.